Sorry this post will not have scrappy pictures. I just thought I'd ask if anyone else out there struggles with those days where I really just want to roll back over and sleep for a few more days..not caring what I miss in the process??
Lately it seems my body is not my own, I am exhausted and everything hurts. I lay awake at night watching the clock hourly until 3:40 or some other hour that normal people are asleep. I may finally dose off only to realize it is time to start the day. After several tries to force myself up off the pillow, I realize the cramping in my legs and the pounding in my head and pain in my neck is back...or did it really ever leave! Oh I have been to the Dr. who tells me I at least fall in their "range" (lowest possible side of it) whatever that means and that they don't know what the problem is..just what you want to hear when you know something is not quite right and am getting REALLY tired of feeling this way day in & day out. I am pretty sure people in their 20's (late 20's..but still!) should not have hot flashes like I do and constantly wonder if their biological clock needs a tune up or complete overhaul! Oh I am SOOO aware that this post is my little pity party for the day and that no one wants to read this but I need to say it nevertheless! So just keep scrolling down if you're in search of a layout or something inspiring because this post is certainly not that! I have mother who suffers from Fibromyalgia ( don't sue me if that's spelled wrong! LOL) and I have seen her go from 1 person to a completely different one over the course of her illness and I so don't want to experience that and feel that I am letting my husband and kids down because I just can't keep up most days and wish I actually felt in control of my body and feelings that erupt from it! I know there will be good things today and am sooo fortunate and thankful for what I have but today is just one of those sleep deprived ramble on kinda days and you all are getting the brunt of it today..tomorrow I promise I will post something scrappy and cute but today it's just not one of those days! That is what i love about scrapbooking for those scrappers reading..life isn't always fun or cute, sometimes it's hard and sad and I don't necessarily want to relive these moments as I would a happier one, but these moments make us more thankful for the ones we do want to remember. Thanks for letting me vent and I hope everyone who actually reads all of this has an exceptionally awesome day..and tomorrow! (Thanks for checking my blog and I hope this post doesn't scare you away! :o)
Amy....I have had Fibromyalgia since 2004...and everyday I have to make a conscious decision to get up...onto my treadmill and exercise to get the get the good endorphins going. I have to choose to rejoice in the Lord always despite how tired or cranky I feel. I am on no medication other than trepiline...I have tried all the miracle drugs and they don't do squat...so I exercise, take supplements and get on with life. I will not allow it to steal my joy or make me live less.
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PS: I suggest you consider the following supplements: Melatonin and collagen helps you to sleep and a Calcium/Magnesium supplement will also help the sleep and with muscle spasms.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Lynette! I will do that. I would love to find something to help without being on any meds..my mother is and i am not so sure they are the only answer. Your strength that comes through your blog is inspiring. Thanks again!
ReplyDeleteHang in there Amy it could be worse. You have your good and bad days. Just keep praying about it. And I'll pray too. You've talk me through some rough patches and You've always told me to keep praying. The Lord will listen one of these days and when he does I hope we are the first in line for the solutions.....See you
ReplyDeleteThanks Cherrie! I know I am fortunate in so many ways. It's hard to focus on the more important things when you feel awful before the days even started and I shouldn't let that get to me..I am certainly praying and am thankful for you too! I hope we r in the front of that line! Hope everything's good on your end! Talk to you soon.
ReplyDeleteI've been on vacation and am just reading back on your posts. I hope by now you are feeling better. i have some long term pain issues and it can be tough to keep a "happy face" all the time. I will pray for you to find answers and feel better.
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