Sorry this post will not have scrappy pictures. I just thought I'd ask if anyone else out there struggles with those days where I really just want to roll back over and sleep for a few more days..not caring what I miss in the process??
Lately it seems my body is not my own, I am exhausted and everything hurts. I lay awake at night watching the clock hourly until 3:40 or some other hour that normal people are asleep. I may finally dose off only to realize it is time to start the day. After several tries to force myself up off the pillow, I realize the cramping in my legs and the pounding in my head and pain in my neck is back...or did it really ever leave! Oh I have been to the Dr. who tells me I at least fall in their "range" (lowest possible side of it) whatever that means and that they don't know what the problem is..just what you want to hear when you know something is not quite right and am getting REALLY tired of feeling this way day in & day out. I am pretty sure people in their 20's (late 20's..but still!) should not have hot flashes like I do and constantly wonder if their biological clock needs a tune up or complete overhaul! Oh I am SOOO aware that this post is my little pity party for the day and that no one wants to read this but I need to say it nevertheless! So just keep scrolling down if you're in search of a layout or something inspiring because this post is certainly not that! I have mother who suffers from Fibromyalgia ( don't sue me if that's spelled wrong! LOL) and I have seen her go from 1 person to a completely different one over the course of her illness and I so don't want to experience that and feel that I am letting my husband and kids down because I just can't keep up most days and wish I actually felt in control of my body and feelings that erupt from it! I know there will be good things today and am sooo fortunate and thankful for what I have but today is just one of those sleep deprived ramble on kinda days and you all are getting the brunt of it today..tomorrow I promise I will post something scrappy and cute but today it's just not one of those days! That is what i love about scrapbooking for those scrappers reading..life isn't always fun or cute, sometimes it's hard and sad and I don't necessarily want to relive these moments as I would a happier one, but these moments make us more thankful for the ones we do want to remember. Thanks for letting me vent and I hope everyone who actually reads all of this has an exceptionally awesome day..and tomorrow! (Thanks for checking my blog and I hope this post doesn't scare you away! :o)